din post cuz busy mugging my 好作文 n 范文... for today's o lvl... so i'll tok a bit of smth interesting on friday...

friday after school, a grp of us went find 林老师... she marked so many essays dat she started going a lil bit crazy, like suddenly singing, rapping, toking crap etc. in collaboration wif mr choy... lolx...

den wkend, mug mug mug... but no sense of urgency, which made me very worried...

finally, de big day... de very day everyone worked very hard for... de 'O's... was getting more n more anxious, cold sweat kept flowing out... went to 林老师 b4 de exam started, complaining i very nervous... den she say smth like 'its ok, go for it!' some encouraging words lah... din motivate me much but no pt liao lah, juz go for it lor...

de moment we waiting for... paper 1... n my 1st time completing a 公函 in 30 mins n writing a 3-paged 报章报道 in an exam, esp. an very impt exam... after paper 1, ms tok n 林老师 standing outside very gan chiong, rushing to see de paper... den they see de paper... 'eh, 这个出过了... eh, 这个有写过...' lolx...

den all de band 1 chiong to 林老师 faster clarify doubts... den 林老师 say de pts i wrote aint too bad, got 条理... dis gave me de confidence man...

den after dat, de more horrifying one, oso my weakness... paper 2... wah lao, de compre 2nd passage total rubbish lah, cant even understand de qns man... but lucky passage 1 n de rest were pretty simple... still quite scared lah...

came home, suddenly very emo... dunnoe y, lovesick perhaps? aiya dunnoe lah...

today is de 2nd last day of intensive chinese, meaning 4 more days to 'O' level chinese paper... scared...

morning quite emo, dunnoe y suddenly tot of my ah ma... thinking of de time seeing her lying on de sofa bed feeling very weak... worried... before recess, went thru de paper 2 we did ytd n read newspaper (friday weekly lah)... oh ya, i did my chinese hwk ytd! worte 3 pages ++ for my 报章报道... song dah!

den after recess did anderson's paper 2, do until headache sia... at 12, bad news man... e-maths paper 2, damn scared lor... den see jean le n tian jun 80+, zi yang wei xun 70+, summore miss ng after justin den skip my name, called kiat wah... making me more anxious... but i tried to be optimistic, see them getting those marks, should be arnd de same lah... den got de paper back...

wah lao, totally devastated... 68/100, damn it! y i got so low?! but i din 'pursue de matter much', wats done cant be undone... serving dis as a warning, muz work very hard for prelim 2 liao... haiz...

after dat, went for lunch wif alan at lim bang food court... n i bought ANYTHING!!! lolx, n i kena root beer... not bad, sightly more bland dan other brands... den finish went back school, play bball for arnd 10-15 mins den go chinese LC practice liao...

in de hall, instead of tables n chairs, everyone sat on de floor -.- den did 2 LCs... n me, cheryl, alan, xiong jie n pearlyn over dere discussing n copying, esp. pearlyn... i was asking for de ans for qn 9 of de 2nd LC cuz i din hear de passage properly... den alan n xiong jie say C, n pearlyn faster change ans... lolx, no integrity sia...

finally, time to go home! den me, kheh hong, darryl, alvin n zehang were discussing de 'Deal or No Deal' ytd, which i din watch but i roughly knew wat was going on... den on de bus, we toking bout wat if our kranji teachers go join de show, so we took out same examples... 1st one on de list was mr joseph sim using commando style, den mr lau using "dun touch MY...", mdm lee wif de " 'i'll keep it short' but end up very long" method etc... damn funny, luaghing all de way...

today... still very intensive... cuz got intensive chinese... lolx...

so today, earlier part of de day quite sian... did nth much... was going thru ytd's paper 2 den dunnoe y explaining 豪迈 end up toking about 林老师 reading 武侠小说... lolx...

atfer recess, de fun started... b4 林老师 came in, tze yang n tian jun were walking back to class den tian jun beat tze yang... den tze yang come in, i ask him whether tian jun beat him, den of cuz he said ya lah... so i went out ka jiao tian jun...

i walked to him den say, 'oi... band 5 de... beat band 1 de ah?! wan die ah?!' lolx... den me n yang zhi keep ka jiao-ing... den suddenly tian jun started splashing water on tze yang... den they chasing each other, den splashing each other outside band 5 classrm when band 5 teacher watching... of cuz, me n yang zhi faster zhao 1st... den end up, tian jun n tze yang mopping de class... damn funny lah, me n yang zhi keep luaghing sia...

we did paper 2... den break again... lame lor... but 15 mins b4 break, we play 林老师's lame game, 板上听写... den i, as usual, ka jiao lah... after break, did paper 1, again... everyday writing compo lor, waste pen ink... no wonder 学生担心没有钱 lah... lolx... me leh? wah... do until very high, attempted de 私函 n wrote damn lot, probably my longest 私函i ever written... den compo of cuz write 报章报道, den starting toking a lot of crap... dun believe can ask alan, yang zhi, xiong jie, lynette n even 林老师... 1 crap i tok bout was 布袋戏, 1 more was going toilet find inspiration... best one, 独乐乐不如众乐乐... lolx...

after school went to find 'anything' n 'whatever'... but cannot find... haiz... lolx... can gif me anything? =P

lets start wif de "Anything" commercial...



damn funny lah, watched a couple of times but still very funny... creative sia... muz try tmr...

well, today... as usual seeing our beloved 林老师 for de whole day... morning b4 recess went thru de assignment we did ytd n 自习... den during de 自习, me n xiong jie keep ka jiao-ing alan... damn funny lor... den alan psyco me go olympiad, but i din go since i wasnt told bout it, summore i opt out lor, so muz respect my decision... however, muz see tmr's schedule lah, if very sian den go olympiad... lolx, realistic sia...

den after recess, did mock paper 1, quite confident but scared ltr out of pt... meanwhile got back de compo for de other mock paper.... 34/50, not bad actually but could be better... soon, break again... den me, alan n yang zhi went makan den me n yang zhi go to hall ka jiao ppl... got de CCA lunch thingy ma, den we 2 going arnd scolding ppl cheap, eat free food... lolx...

after dat, went back class for paper 2... de passages so dumb one lor... everything oso copy, lolx... den finish 林老师 gif us de answers... n de 综合填空 i got everything correct den 理解测验 last one wrong, pek chek sia... lolx... whole lesson ended at arnd 4.30 den me n yang zhi went to 4E den de band 2 guys protesting to be released... lolx...

paiseh gonna go to my ah ma hse liao...

quite pissed now... i came home, on com use a while b4 i bathe den i bathe come out, my sis watching her show... nvm, den i go my parents' rm watch tv for a while den switch off n slp... den wat happened? my sis came in switched on de tv den some more de tv damn loud lor... so i went to my rm n slp... n arnd 45 mins woke up by de typing of de keyboard... dammit...

nvm... lets not continue toking bout dis b4 i become more pissed.... n not toking bout de lifeless n oso very pissed sunday... so wat bout today?

today was great... morning went to de hall for de cultural fiesta thingy, which will occur in de saturday morning lor, stupid man... den everyone jeered n miss sim sat wat, "is dis how u behave as a kranjian?"

shocking thing: whole school said yes... SONG DAH!!! HOOT AH!!! wah lao, i stunned lor... den miss sim very pissed off den say wat, "stop dat now! i am so disappointed wif u ppl... blah blah blah embarassment thingy blah blah blah..." damn funny lor =P

after dat went back class... forgot we did wat, but i can rmb i tok a lot, damn lot of crap in class... ya, we did de 名言名句 exercise... den miss lim went out for smth den she came back, recess time... song bo, sibeh slack... but den i was informed den i haf maths olympiad training, which i alrdy opt out earlier dis yr... me, jean le, felicia n alan deciding whether to go not n in de end all din go... nvm lah, i asked yan ting whether my name was on de attendence list n she said no... heng ah...

soon after recess, went for photo taking... we go call de band 5 classmates 1st den see their class... wah lao, damn style sia... really like impt meeting like dat, n everyone look so serious... lolx... photo taking... last yr liao, so muz take nice nice one, n it was really fun getting de whole class doing de same thing...

after photo taking, went back class continue my paper 2 practice which i had arnd 15-20 mins to complete de paper dat was almost untouched... but still din do lah... meanwhile got back my mock paper de 应用文, 10/20 lor, cuz i wrote de letter like writing 报章报道... lolx... den... oh ya, my sweet... realised gals r horrifying, eat sweet like no nid money one... wait, really no nid their money, cuz ITS MY MONEY!!! lolx, nvm lah, i very 大气 one, but its an impt lesson learnt...

den after dat got presentation of de 名言名句 we did earlier on... my grp, me n yang zhi go present... we both toking cock dere, cuz we dunnoe wat we wrote, den miss lim explained almost everything for us... n i over dere ka jiao miss lim, e.g. she asked wat story de fella called wat tolstoy wrote, den i say 神雕侠吕... lolx... i tok a lot of bullshit dui liao lah...

den wat i did ah... after school, went play bball for a couple of mins den mervin, wee chong n wei sheng emo-ly squating under de mini coconut tree, den me, esmond n wei shen playing dere... den i du lan dun wan play liao, intending to go home but went makan lunch wif mervin... den at de lot 1 food court, aka food junction, wah like 4b gathering like dat... majority of de students were from kranji, n majority of de kranjians were from 4b... lolx... i think more dan half de class were dere, n even miss lai was dere, eating meat! lolx...

overall, my day was really fun n quite memorable for de time being... wait, i realised dis is a very long post, so i better stop now, b4 anyone who reads dis become restless... lolx...

juz watched a video on "future 2025" which oso featured in mun kit's blog... its bout how technology may affect our lives in de yr 2025... n i realised dat technology can be so advanced dat it may one day take control of us... scary...

well, today is sat, as usual did my hse wk... today quite lifeless lah, nth much... whole day slacking, watch tv, use com, listen songs... dunnoe how to revise chinese lah...

haiz, lets see wat i can tok bout today... oh ya, ytd i sibeh cham sia... on de way to de bus interchange at lot 1 dere, i took out my phone n guess wat... miss ng n miss yong were dere! SIAO LIAO! den miss ng like very shocked n miss yong 'orh hor' me... muz be guai kia for de nxt few days i think... lolx...

cant slp... feeling uneasy if i dun blog... lolx...
its 12.14am, so dis is for ytd...

well, feeling supreme... my steps has lightened... i'm in very high spirits... actually still very emo when i went to school but managed to cheer up thru out de day... cuz... hehe, paiseh ah, secret...

er... i'll keep dis post short b4 my parents wake up n nag me, cuz a major family prob juz occured... so tmr de tok more...

i was walking in de rain...
y was i walking in de rain?
am i purely stupid?
or i want to hide my tears?
no dere wasn't tears, n every drop of de rain hurt me...
or was it u who hurt me...?
im confused...
physically we were close, mentally we were far...
cant we juz tok? i really wondered...
when i saw de lightning, i hope it would strike me rite away... but it didnt...
when i saw de cars, i hope they would hit me rite away... but they didnt...

now i wish...
i wish we were back to strangers...
de times when we didnt noe each other at all...
so i wont suffer...
so my heart wont feel any pain...
but everything now is irreversible...
i haf to face reality...
i haf to face de fact...
dat i dun belong dere...
dere was no place for me to exist
but where am i to go now?

i was silent for almost de whole day...
thinking thru a lot...
n i was disappointed...
disappointed wif myself...
looking down on myself...
cuz no one was looking down on me...
my friends cared for me, except u...
or was it out of empathy?
i dunnoe...

dis new life sux...
really sux...
can i haf my old life back?
where do i find it back?
plz tell me...

WOO~! my 'new post' is finally back!!! song dah...

but feeling very very disappointed wif myself today... today went thru our prelim 1 papers, n it was badly done... ms loh monday say band 1 got 1 person got 14/50 for compo, n i had a bad feeling alrdy... n it was really me, man i got 14... 14!!! 1st time in my life i failed a compo... letter 14/20, LC 20/20 (de one n only i am proud of...) den e maths paper 1, oso terribly done, 52/80... i expected a 60 u noe, but all my careless mistakes took away at least 10 marks... 10 MARKS!!! i would haf gotten an A1... english, glad i got 18/30 for feature article despite having no confidence, n 17/30 for compo... but my compre, 23/50! man, wat am i doing?

tot thru a lot... maybe i was juz too complecent... or simply im juz stupid or useless or watever bullshit... im good for nth... plz, look down on me...

ytd wanted to post but accidentally close de window n cannot recover post den heck care liao... so lets start from ytd...

SUNDAY: din study at all, was feeling quite guilty lor... woke up early in de morning juz to buy breakfast... den went to novena wif my cousin n nephews n buy cheap cheap adidas stuff... i got a white jacket for (u.p.: $109) n a jersey (u.p.:$49) wif 50% discount... SONG DAH!!! den we went magic wok makan n anderden's to eat ice-cream wif hot chocolate pot, damn nice...

MONDAY: today got e maths paper 2... was very very nervous n anxious cuz i not well-prepared... summore in de hall lor, de atmosphere more tense, wats more i sitting 3rd row from de front... but still can manage de paper, though some ans different from others... den got chem IP by uncle yuen tuck, quite fruitful but we keep playing despite sitting in front... den went lot 1 makan wif zi yang, wei xun, alex n jean le... eat finish go home den saw benny lim on de bus at de kranji stop... n he saw me bring my phone, but din scold me... instead we actually compared our phones, n he using w880i... FTW!!! W880i!!! at 1st dun look nice, but muz feel it, diff. feeling... de phone not bad lah, but i still luv my own phone! den came back home n played wif my mic wif jean le, we toking via skype for near to 2 hrs, wif my bro ka jiao-ing... lolx, den we played skype games, e.g. bingo, battle ship, hangman... lolx, damn lame lor...

though my life like very simple n no life like dat, i enjoyed it pretty much... cuz i felt a lot better, no more pain in my heart, everything was lightened up for me... thx taiyi n alan being de 2 person who actually care for me... =) others leh? plz reflect upon urself lah hor... lolx, juz joking... =P

its good to see u smile... at least i noe u r fine...

feeling better now... a lot better...
i haf tot a lot last nite...
y should i suffer for someone who i play a role as a passer-by in her life, or maybe no one at all...
i dun even go across her mind when she has a prob...
alan was rite, im juz thinking too much... way too much...
it doesnt worth it, simply not worth it...
it only hurts myself more instead...
thx alan for waking me up...

so... i had lunch but no nap... n i din do much work juz now... but at least did my phy wkbk n notes... too restless to study now... all i really nid now is motivation, yes motivation... i nid someone to start my engine so i can move on...

well, haf been feeling down dis few days, tried to cover myself from looking emo n it was rather successful cuz no one actually noticed it... in my heart, i feel a sense of... guilt? helplessness? uselessness? i dunnoe, a feeling which is totally not rite... a feeling which i never had b4... n it is somehow strangling me... i feel like death is de onli solution... maybe is my wild thoughts again... but i juz haf to find de root of my prob, w/o anyone assisting me... dis is a one-on-one battle...

today got e-maths prelim paper 1... 3 marks gone, n most of my ans look very weird, e.g. 3/root 85 etc... n i took my paper wif an empty stomach, hardly any strength to think but still managed to finish de paper...

den went canteen makan b4 phy IP, which was postponed to 11.15... only stall 7 open, den everything look like re-cooked from ytd one... den de auntie fried eggs, n derrick's egg wasn't fully cooked, got 1 part of de egg raw one, look very disgusting =P lucky my egg look nicer... den finish sit sit awhile den go IP liao... still on de 'magentism produce current' dat topic, but got new thing called 'transformer'... robots in disguise, lolx... arnd 12.40 ended, den alot of ppl go tian jun hse play soccer n i went directly home liao...

well, nth very special today... or got one special thing is 4Bians coming into classrm thinking dat de music we played was from PA... lolx, dummies... nth to say liao leh... gonna take a nap b4 i eat n chiong paper 2s!

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true

looking at ur back really hurts me a lot...

doing my ghim moh paper 2 halfway, see de loci qn very pek chek... so decided to blog...

my blogger, still not back to normal... tried create a new account n try but to no avail... still same... sibei sad... see others can blog normally, but i muz do it de 'unique' way, piss me off man...

today, was called out by mdm yong, returned us assignments which were done quite sometime ago... den geog, continued on kyoto, n went thru part of de SGP 2012... den phy, happy sia... moment test: 12/12!!! SONG DAH!!! so my 2 days of hard work did pay off... continued wif de 'magnetism got current' topic, n played wif de turning thingy which produces current n lights up de bulb... quite interesting...

chem, did de qns of organic chem which i dunnoe how to do... n mrlim n mrkat joined force bully me =( lolx, juz playing wif them nia lah... den they gif us 1 period to revie our e-maths, so gd lor... n i completed all my paper 1s =) maths, forgot do wat liao, but rmb dat ppl queued to ask miss ng qns on de e-maths starter pack... den went lot 1 eat, again... 3 consecutive times in a wk... den went NTUC buy mint plus n pipa sweet...

so dats all of my day lor... nth much, still very moody... seeing de sky so blue, not a gd sign... very hot oso... haiz, all bcuz of global warning which is caused by us... y m i toking so 'geographically'? i dunnoe...

we were so close, yet so far...

today... feeling better... perhaps, back to myself n ytd was juz an illusion? i dunnoe, im confused myself... well, de day wasn't bad for me... lets start from...

physics, continue going de notes, n 2 IP sessions on friday (10.55am - 12.30pm) n tues (11.15am - 1.30pm)... sibei sian sia... chem, supposed to haf a close-book test den becom open-book den become assignment... lolx... haf talent in organic chem, not bad at all... den geog, continue 'de day after tmr', it was really great man, eating 'mint plus' behind n enjoy de movie... maths, nth much, smth which i cant tell... within 4 walls =)

after dat, went makan... n our 三粉 gang has recruited 2 new members, jean le as Milo粉 n ziyang as 奶粉... lolx, so we r now 五粉... song dah! den everyone eat finish, everyone started toking n making fun of joan (laughing at her for no reasons... at all...) when she sitting alone n waiting for de others... den b4 we left we did smth really really stupid... better not say, ltr my blog become controversial... lolx... it was really fun, had a great time man...

b4 i end... i created a new blog cuz my old one is dead... but blog skin, URL, everything still same... but if u wan see previous posts, do go to http://blahx3blahx3.blogspot.com

so dats all, adios...








well, now u r being cold to me, my feelings for u r oso becoming bland...