so... i had lunch but no nap... n i din do much work juz now... but at least did my phy wkbk n notes... too restless to study now... all i really nid now is motivation, yes motivation... i nid someone to start my engine so i can move on...

well, haf been feeling down dis few days, tried to cover myself from looking emo n it was rather successful cuz no one actually noticed it... in my heart, i feel a sense of... guilt? helplessness? uselessness? i dunnoe, a feeling which is totally not rite... a feeling which i never had b4... n it is somehow strangling me... i feel like death is de onli solution... maybe is my wild thoughts again... but i juz haf to find de root of my prob, w/o anyone assisting me... dis is a one-on-one battle...