i was walking in de rain...
y was i walking in de rain?
am i purely stupid?
or i want to hide my tears?
no dere wasn't tears, n every drop of de rain hurt me...
or was it u who hurt me...?
im confused...
physically we were close, mentally we were far...
cant we juz tok? i really wondered...
when i saw de lightning, i hope it would strike me rite away... but it didnt...
when i saw de cars, i hope they would hit me rite away... but they didnt...

now i wish...
i wish we were back to strangers...
de times when we didnt noe each other at all...
so i wont suffer...
so my heart wont feel any pain...
but everything now is irreversible...
i haf to face reality...
i haf to face de fact...
dat i dun belong dere...
dere was no place for me to exist
but where am i to go now?

i was silent for almost de whole day...
thinking thru a lot...
n i was disappointed...
disappointed wif myself...
looking down on myself...
cuz no one was looking down on me...
my friends cared for me, except u...
or was it out of empathy?
i dunnoe...

dis new life sux...
really sux...
can i haf my old life back?
where do i find it back?
plz tell me...